Wildest Dreams

When I need a bit of inspiration - whether it's fashion, decorating, fitness or romantic - I do what most warm blooded American women do and turn to that mecca of creative brilliance, Pinterest.  I admit, I've become addicted to searching for recipes that I will never attempt and room designs I can't afford. Mostly, I troll at night, before bed when I need a little something to set my mind at ease - I never knew how relaxing a search for spring outfit ideas could be.  The other night, a really great quote landed in my feed: "Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about."

Now, if you ever read or follow "The Secret," you'll recognize that the universe sends us many signs and that we are supposed to listen and read these signs.  I'm not overly superstitious or spiritual, but I do believe in the power of the universe, in general.  Science, definitely, but on that other level, I believe there are elements which draw us to certain events, people, interests, careers and so on.  Forces of nature lead us to places and people.  As with magnets, we attract and are attracted to certain people or ideas.  Some might argue that life is a series of random coincidences that lead us to one place or another.  While I don't necessarily believe there is a deity setting the course of our lives - our life course is set by us - there are forces and elements that draw us in one direction or another at particular times. 
 
But just as this quote suggested to me, and although I began to believe that the dreams I had were not going to come true - certainly not on my timeline, maybe ever - I just couldn't let them go.  I thought about my goals nearly everyday.  Anyone who knows me knows that I don't like to wait.  Lately, the waiting has been the hardest part when all I want to do is kickstart the next phase of my life. I have a strong passion to see my ideas and desires set into motion.

Sometimes being stubborn is a significant flaw in my personality, but in this case, my faith in the universe and in other people and perhaps my unwillingness to believe there are things which are impossible to achieve, have allowed these new changes in my life to occur.  The forces in nature which pulled me toward this path were just too strong.  And even when I told myself to turn my back, walk away and pursue an easier course, some force pulled me back toward that thing - those ideas that danced in my head on a daily basis.  My heart couldn't let them go, so why should my head?

This "don't give up" message isn't unique, but a good reminder that some ideas or dreams - even my wildest - are worth holding on to and pursuing.  So today, on my daughter's 5th birthday, I submitted the final manuscript of my second novel, Queen Makers for final editing and formatting.  One of my dreams was to have two books under my belt before 40...even if it's only a few weeks before 40.   Look for Queen Makers online and in local bookstores this spring. Box, checked.